2011

  • 1/31/11: car accident - car was totaled
  • 2/14/11: break up
  • 3/2011 - 6/2011: horrible, dont want to think about it
  • 6/2011: quit my job —> europe trip, EDC vegas, berkeley trip
  • 7/21/11: move to CO
  • Thanksgiving: Berk trip ([M] sproul shows) + Socal visit
  • 12/16/11: signing = beginning
  • Christmas: Vegas with family + Socal visit

2011 was a year of major major change and transition. honestly, 2011 was shit. sure i did some crazy things like edc or europe, but it was all tainted. i went through a bout of depression, developed mild alcoholism (which i think has yet to go away), lost myself completely. i battled loneliness, emptiness, lost-ness. i put away my life of 20+ years. i put all my aspirations and ambitions on hold. My surroundings completely changed. nothing seemed to be going right and everything brought me down. my attitude changed completely as i became negative, spiraled out of control, and just completely forgot who i was. pretty much everything was warped.

however, the end of 2011 has picked up. its weird. its like the universe knew to put me on a cliffhanger to end the year. i am finally finding closure. i am finally rediscovering myself. starting to love myself once again. i have regained some confidence as i see myself overcoming a lot of these trials. i have found some peace. i know who my friends are, especially because i now know what its like to loose someone and something i held so precious. and i am excited for 2012 because i get to start up a venture. signing those papers have left me anxious for 2012. i am stressed, overwhelmed, and terrified of what is to come, but its nothing negative. its more constructive and positive. its going to push me. all this change has really begun to set me straight. i am happy that i have been pushed to this point because i am now only beginning to rediscover things. took long enough. as much as 2011 was hell, im glad that it happened. its really showed me that i have what it takes to persevere and be strong. i am regaining my confidence and i cannot wait to rebuild. 2012 be good xD